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Thursday, May 22, 2014

Bug in My Ear Update

Okay well that was an interesting trip to the doctors office.... First looked in they were like are you sure a bug went in? Said couldn't see anything, looked nice and clean. Yep I'm sure... After a couple of flushes with the big syringe she was like oh wait I see something... pulls out these long white I don't know what to call it... and she didn't either .. she said "what in the world?" looks in again and says "I'll be back", goes to get the doctor... shows doctor catch basin of water with what she pulled out, doctor says what is it ? Other one says, Don't know, they look in again with the scope thing, she says now she sees some blood and not sure what else, reaches in with instrument and I felt something like come out of the depths of my ear/throat , and the doc says "What the heck is this?" I was like okay now your making me nervous.... and laughed... Why do I always confuse the doctor that I go to for answers? More flush ... and they threw away the water basin each time, I wanted a sample... they didn't even save a piece of what they didn't know what it was? One nurse said she thought one big piece of something looked like a big bug antenna... the doctor wanted to know if I ever had tubes in my ear because she thought it was some kind of threads or tissue matter ... no idea , anyway as far as my ear she said so inflamed at that point I had to pick up a prescription for drops and will be going  back on the 3rd and now my head is feeling like an over ripe watermelon.... no seriously it just feels so weird and when I tap my head I feel like it has a watermelon thump... an echo or something like I got water on my super brain :0 and my balance is wacked... gee can't wait till that goes away... along with the darn headache. Guess I can't complain too much I had the headache before the bug flew in anyway Other than my ear couldn't get any blood work done today, have to go back for that. I used to always have low blood pressure but apparently now I have really high and regular blood pressure and seemed more of a big deal than my bug in my ear. They checked it a couple times while I was there and it just seems to just shoot up randomly to 160/110 along with a heart rate that jumped to 98 beats just sitting there lol and I mada an alarm on the thing go off... doc was like what meds are you on for the high blood pressure? Lol No meds haven't taken any meds in over a year now. so yeah we'll have to work on a few other issues when I go back.... but at least I finally entered a doctor's office again Hopefully doesn't become a habit for 2014... sure would like to know what all the stuff they pulled out was though and why my head feels so weird now, besides the headache... we shall have to wait and see . Meantime at least I can hope we got the bug out although they never really found an actual bug... which was weird to me... but I am always weird anyway so nothing new. Peace all <3 br="">

That Ol'e Higher Power Really Does Work In Mysterious Ways

Have you ever heard that saying the #Lord , God, that #HigherPower works in Mysterious ways? Okay well I know I am probably not the best example to Future #survivors You guys just kind of have to look at me like a Mom lol "Do as I say Not as I do ".

Anyway yes I have been procrastinating about seeing a doctor ... might shock some to know but I have not stepped into a doctors office in well over a year now, and then it was because i had a bad cold that almost went to pneumonia and I got a round of antibiotics and steroids, and was supposed to make an appointment because I knew then I needed to get some blood work done.... well 1 week at a time procrastinating and here I am about 60 weeks or so later.... and still have not gone. The past year it is hard to admit out loud (Or type) but quality of life has somewhat declined, but mainly because of my own stubbornness. Everyone wants you to take pills or schedule tests that load you with chemicals etc.... I just didn't want to put anything into my body anymore... I haven't taken anything at all for a year now, I even stopped taking the levothyroxine for my thyroid completely at this point... early last year I was getting unable to sleep, losing weight, appetite loss... the usual symptoms and I cut the dosage in half and for a few months that was better I slept and ate again.... then it came back so I dropped it completely, that was like last October or so, and again seemed to help.... but yeah I need to get that checked out because I can't cut the dose any more ...
Doctors had said #thyroid was wiped out by #radiation treatments cause in the line of fire but could possibly regrow ... So who knows maybe I'm hyperactive now? I get occasional pancreatitis attacks and pass the random small kidney stones here and there... (I think usually as a result of trying to use over the counter pain relievers... I know its a no no but pain in one body part or another which tends to decide how the day is going that day seems to have designated himself my best buddy.

SO Any way lol #ChemoBrain I digress

So I was saying He works in mysterious ways because Yeah been #procrastinating and Know I have to see a doctor (Yuck I hate going to doctors I don't have time for that (or energy I am too busy trying to do STUFF that I need to do on a daily basis) and now in the course of doing stuff....

I was in the barn getting the horses their grain and son of a bitch something flew into my ear... and I do not mean just flew into (or maybe dropped from ceiling no idea didn't get to see it) I mean this sucker proceeded to intentionally immediately drill deeper into my ear... DO YOU KNOW HOW LOUD A BUG CRAWLING UP AGAINST YOUR EARDRUM IS? Man!!!! I mean this sucker went to town. Of course tried to get it with finger, piece of hay stalk, water from hose, etc..... nope sucker just kept burrowing.... and I am like #WTF How deep can the damn thing go? Finish with animals and by this time cannot stand the vibration in my ear and it's messing with my balance .... Up to the house..... ALCOHOL.... hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm okay well it is quiet now.... but cannot flush out and as if it is not bad enough my poor ears always ring anyway, and I can't hear well now my right ear is like muffled and irritated from alcohol and q tip digging and common sense dictates I am doing nothing but pushing it in deeper... 


GGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRR.
Now after much swearing and fussing and stomping about in the course of all this.... I mean really I had things to get done.... I ended up doing the only thing we #CancerSurvivors can do some times.... I ended up #laughing, cracking up and looking on the #BrightSide.... Hey so you got a bug in your ear and you can't clean and go transplant the mints you were going to move today..... BUT at least I am calling the doctor... lol been so long probably not there anymore ahahaha... Who would have thunk with all the issues of the past year that I have just got through on my own a #BugInMyEar would be what makes me FINALLY go ? Well I guess since I "Have" to go in I will get some of that blood work done at least that I have put off so long .

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Yes This Cancer Survivor Is Still Kicking

Hello all I know I said I would try to get on here more often and keep this blog alive ;) I am still kicking and even though not able to stay outside in the extreme heat for too long at a time I do continue to live on my little farm and putter with my various herbs and plantings. My faithful Shug has passed on but My Jake and Earnie are still fat and sassy and enjoying what my husband refers to as a life of permanent vacation. lol I tell people if they are reincarnated people that wanted to be a horse they must have been very good people to have such a sweet life. I take good care of my big babies even if I do not have the energy after meeting all of their needs to really ride anymore, I get as much satisfaction just being around them and soaking up good horsey vibe mojo energy ;) .

I should have brought the camera out with me... I  promise next time I will :)

The honeysuckle are a riot of blossoms here and I have been out there pretending to be a Giant hummingbird and savoring the sweet nectar lol.

Did you know honeysuckle are beneficial and use is mentioned in ancient Chinese medical text?

Anyway I am trying to keep my word as a #CancerSurvivor and Keep the blog alive as long as I am so even though I am keeping the post short (Because I really am the busiest unpaid person in the world lol) Here I am and Off I go and just a reminder our #CancerSupport facebook group can be found here and we welcome everyone 
Love Deb